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Getting in Touch with Yourself

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I was gone for a couple of weeks and had the awesome task of ministering to soldiers, civilians, and their families in San Antonio, TX. I have had many challenging expereinces during my lifetime, but this one has to at least be in the top three. I was in awe of the magnitude of trauma and grief that I saw on a daily basis. It was very humbling as well as empowering. 

How does someone minister to a total stranger who’s life has just met death for a split second? How do I make my presence known to a trauma team that I have never met before in the heat of the moment? How do I give someone hope who has just lost two legs, an arm, a mouth and is in need of a chest tube? This was the reality I had to face everyday. Every door that I opened, I never knew what imagine I was going to see around that door. I didn’t know what smell I was going to inhale during that time period. At times, I thought that I must have been crazy for every considering going into the ministry. Not only ministry, but in the military. Where the nature of the business is war. Where it is kill or be killed. The facets not only affect the soldiers, but the soldier’s parents, children, and friends that have known that soldier long before trauma was even a thought. 

The experience has taught me to get out of touch with myself and to look at theses soldiers as soldiers of God. It didn’t matter what they were in there for. How they did it, or how they now looked. I was forced to put on a spiritual lens and minister to someone on the worst day of their life. I was to be God’s representative. Who knows..I may have been the first reflection of God that they have ever had the chance to meet. I may never know the lasting effect of my presence, but what I do know is that I was there when very few people were. I was there before mothers, brothers, fathers, friends, aunts, uncles, and cousins. As in our own lives, God was there before any of us knew anything and that’s the glory of the mystery. The Combat Medical Ministry Course at Fort Sam Houston made me a true soldier of the Lord. I faced fears and have overcome them. I was able to separate myself from situations and let God take over my speaking and seeing. I let God. And that’s all I ever needed to do from the beginning. 

MY NEW FAVORITE BOOK

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Most people know that I am a history buff. An extreme history buff. I more interested in slave history and readings on the American Civil War. Why? Because it’s the only war that’s really mattered in this country. If anyone else tells you anything else different…it’s a lie! The Civil War and slavery has had a world wide effect on the way we view race, geographic location, and in some measuring intelligence. It’s amazing when I drive through certain parts of the country I am treated differently here and totally different there.

Throughout my historical academic career I have never heard anything about African American soldiers and the great part that they played in the CW; both Union and Confederate sides. So outside of all of the classroom stuff I researched ferociously for work that was relevant to the property that was the cause of the war…the African American slave. The institution that is responsible for tearing families apart, rape, the taking of language, reasons for illegal loitering amongst too many African Americans at one time, and why most African Americans can’t trace their families trees any further than their great-great-great grandfathers. So during my quest for this gold mine I came across a book furnished by the Army Center for Military History. Also known as CMH. I couldn’t believe the wealth of information that I came across with the writings on Native Americans in the Civil War, etc. 

Finally, I came across a monstrous volume written by William Dobak entitled, “Freedom by the Sword.” This work is by far the most well researched piece of work that I have ever had come across regarding African Americans struggling to fight for this country and the new found land that they had the right to claim. The book has over 500 pages of research and has not disappointed with any pixel of ink. Every note is well documented and the operations are well supported with extensive documentation that I took the liberty of researching myself after reading it in the book. Most of the findings were found in the Original Records; better known as the OR. The OR is literally the Bible for the American Civil War. It is full of primary sources that cease to stop and it would cost a serious historian a pretty penny. The cost is high, but so is the gain. In my mind the whole collection is priceless. If I ever found an extra 2 grand to shovel out, it would immediately be in my library for endless use. I would create more than a few thousand fictional accounts .

Overall, I think this is the most fascinating piece of work that could ever be purchased. There is no way that a primary source like this could ever be topped. I also hear that Ira Berlin is very extensive in slave research as well.

Finally a Breather..Importance of Self-Care

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I just finished up an eight day work week and could not feel better. Being a Chaplain in the military has a lot of perks. I get to minister to the best soldiers in the world, I get to travel, and the pay is outstanding! This past week I was on AT orders, which meant that I was doing more than a typical one weekend a month. This helped me get caught up on Army paperwork and actually get my name out to soldiers that otherwise would have never heard of me. Along with that I was travelling back and forth to the base all week which called for some great meditation along the drives. 

In a few short days I will be going to San Antonio so that I can take a Combat Medical Ministry course for a couple of weeks. During my years in graduate school I was always working in the hospital and got called in the late hours of the night during the winter….in Ohio!

I have heard nothing but good things about the course and I am excited to be roomed right down the street from the Riverwalk and the Alamo.I always liked working in the hospitals. It always reminded me how blessed I am no matter how jacked up my life appeared to be. I would rather do anything than sit in a hospital bed all day long and have nurses coming in every five minutes to get vitals. 

On the other hand, it will be nice to finally get some peace and be actually able to write some quality work without any interruptions. I could be making so much more money if I were actually able to write and get some sleep at a timely hour. But, that rarely happens. So I am more than enthused about getting out and getting into writing solitude. 

Since, today I have the day off I will be getting some writing goals down for the remainder of the year and maybe watch some NBA basketball. No phone calls will be answered and a couple of naps will happen. This will give me a chance to rejuvenate my batteries and hopefully a more productive week will happen. Well… now my wife brings me the baby with a fever..so much for a breather.

Quest for Ishmael Is Finally Finished!

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I don’t know how long this thing took, but it was long enough. I could not believe how unprofessional I was with finishing this thing at times. Now I am in the midst of just getting a few things together with and editor and I will finally be done and ready to throw this thing out onto the shelf. 

Preston and Delight are definitely fighting for their marriage and Delight wants to make sure that Preston is finally going to see Ishmael after Lustray took him away for so long. It’s such a sad story, but unfortunately it is the reality that any man faces when he breaks up with a woman. 

This is really a book for both Delight and Preston. Preston is slowly working into the mold of being a father to his household family all over again.

Preston also comes into contact with not one, but both of Lustray’s baby daddies and they are all on the same page to reach their children. Preston has finally started court proceedings and Lustray is on the run of her life. The part these three play in everything really turns into an Ocean’s Eleven type of atmosphere and Preston is moving the pieces as fast as he can without mercy. Even Delight gets in on the act and they do it; without uttering a single word to Lustray. Preston has located his son and the surprises just keep on popping up here and there.

I hope that all of you enjoy this book as much as I had finishing. But I have to reread some things so that I can make sure the characters all line up with eachother and that I’m not mistaking or screwing up any of the character’s names. For a sneak peek here is the cover:

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Enjoy this pic as i get back to work and start on “The Alliance”

Going Back to School

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So after eight years of education since high school I have decided to go back to school. For some reason I have this sick school fetish that I have. So all I do is think about more and more learning and how I could it use it to help others. So the new program I am entering is the Marriage and Family Therapy program that would allow me to work as a mental therapist in Ohio. The licensing laws in some states are very lengthy, but I am willing to obtain something that would be useful in my life. As a Chaplain, we are typically doing a lot of counseling that entails us getting with individuals spiritually. In a nutshell I believe that formal counseling training would be a huge boost to counseling someone spiritually. Sure I could talk about God until the doors of heaven open, but if my approach and technique are incorrect I’m sure I wouldn’t reach as many people as intended. 

Another perk of entering this program is that basically a third of the class will be free. Now sure I would want it all to be free, but at this point I will take what I can get and defer those student loans for the time being as I get myself situated. Although, I have heard that the Army will pay 40k of the lifetime of my loans, which is very significant. 

Wouldn’t this kill the writing side? I tend to think of it in the complete opposite. While I am taking classes I am more than sure I will get a deeper understanding that will tend to make some more stories out of the education I receive. Could you imagine how awesome some pathology stories could put a twist on a story? There are just too many twists and turns to name on this blog. I’m all for variety and this could do nothing less than expand my range as a writer and as a person that wishes to express human emotion in a greater light.

So it may soon seem that I do not really care about blogging, but it will be the complete opposite. It will be more of journaling my experiences so that you may all develop a greater understanding of me as well as those that I serve.

Happy Birthday Mrs.Williams

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Today is my wife’s birthday and she is smoking hot as usual. So without further ado I am getting off of this blog very quickly so that I can cater to her ALL day long. 

Mrs. Beautiful

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Mrs. Beautiful

Our wedding anniversary for a 007 party hosted by one of my friends.

IT MUST BE SPRING

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For whatever reason the break in the weather gave me some unexpected energy that makes me want to put my all into everything. I can go to bed late and wake up early, do a couple of projects along the way and not think anything of it. Since this is the hot season for ebook sales, this is the time to get out all of what I can at this time. I haven’t put anything out in almost a year, but in the meantime I am loving this ride. So far I only have 3 full length novels out and I am making a decent living off of them. I can only imagine what it will be like once I release all ten of my books this year. Sometimes, I am a little leery about releasing so many projects all at once. It’s kind of like I want to tease my fans and just ride this thing until I fall off.

The other thing about Spring is that it is a great time to get to propose or get married. As you very well know I do weddings on the side and the calls have been coming a little more than steady lately. So I have a couple of counseling sessions already booked, so that will help out tremendously as I get ready to expand my Mortified Empire. I have another author that I plan on releasing to the public sometime this week. His name is Jerone Penrose, Jr. and he is a beast with the lyrical word. I would recommend this man to anyone that is looking to have their lives enlightened by strong words that have a great length of meaning.

My wife thinks that I am lying, but I am going to start working out twice a day. Why? Because I need to and second I have the time. I stopped working the part time gig so that I can concentrate my efforts towards something a little more fulfilling. In this day and age thinking short term doesn’t seem to cut it. I believe that it’s more than imperative to start thinking about what your kids are going to be doing with their kids. I have student loans, weddings to pay for, and grandkids on the way. Not that any of those things exist besides the student loans. But, it sure does make for create an interesting possibility since I do have seven children. 

So how does Spring motivate you? Hopefully for the better to propel you into the winter.

My issue with Generation “TEXT”

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Lately I have become more and more disgusted with the poor grammar inherited by our kids. It’s no wonder that the United States has a kids dropping out of school every 26 seconds. Honestly, the standards are so low now that I had to wonder what was the point of going and wasting time. I went to visit a couple of schools over the last five years and all of them being public; I found it disturbing that the way to success what a “check the block” mentality. There is no way in the world that any kid above the middle school level should be spelling people as “peoples” on a formal English test. 

To tell you the truth I am more impressed by the Africans that have migrated here within the last couple of years and the elaborate vocabulary they have once they are here in the United States. Sometimes I look at Facebook posts and I can’t believe that grown adults throw up such poor grammar are able to even post some things on the web. Sure I get lazy sometimes myself and I might throw in some acronyms here and there. But, dang it there has to come a point and time where someone spells explained like “eksplayn” has to cease.  I don’t know. Maybe it’s just a pet peeve of mine and it may not matter to anyone else. But if I’m trying to work with someone professionally the first typo I see….I am out! For whatever reason it just speaks to me that you don’t have enough pride in yourself to come correct. Believe it or not I left some jobs that couldn’t spell my name correctly after repeatedly telling them my name is spelled Ahmad and not “Ahmed”. What the heck did you think I put on the application? Obviously, they didn’t care enough about me to think it was worth changing and it showed in their treatment of employees. Your thoughts are welcome.

Lecrae: Don’t Waste Your Life

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